For many days, i think that i will free from my mental bomb blast that has been following me for a long time. But i can not get the procedure to explain and share my love that is secrect to every one except I. It is really a matter of suspense that even my beloved does not know directly that i am the person who love her. I haven,t make any conversasion with her till now. But , probably i will meet with her very soon. I started to love her about 11 years ago when she was very little and i was also a boy of tender age. I have not understood that it would be great part of my life. But, gradually, i came to understand that, it will be take a serious part of my life. And now, i feel that. For this reason, i am starting to share my story to everyone as i think it will be documentary of a great love that truns over time.
She was then only,12 or 13 years then. I found a glitter in hers eyes that attracted me very much. Seldom, i saw her as she was the daughter of a restricted family. But at the time of the school tiffin period, we often cross each other on the way of out home. It should be noted that we are the inhabitant of the same village. I was then 15, so i feel the change of my mentality. All the scenes of her driven me to the forward upto the our next meeting. But i konw probably she used to take all the thing just an incident. I never thought to speak my feeling to her as i was a child of respected family. And for this reason, to save the respectability and to continue my ego, i afraid to tell her. And as at this age, everyone has the habbit to share everything with her parents. i thought she might say everything to her parents. That was not expected to me. As her father was the school teacher of mine and i respect her very much.
At the time of the school assembly, I shore the Prayer and I felt heroisim as i thought that she wass watching me in a different look. And for many other reasons, i felt very cool as I was the first boy of the school so everyone took a special look to me.
All things were going very nicely. But my mental explosion took place when, the class mates started to make various gossip about us. though i knew that every thing is false, but i felt happy as they told my dreams.
At the day, when i left the school forever, i along with every one went to every classes fro taking blessings from all the students. And i was also present at the Class of her. Unlike every classes, i could not make any speach to the students. I, dont know what about that. But , Now i feel that I was thinking that, i will not make the regular meet with her from now. I followed her eyes carefully, I dont know, what she felt then. But i think taht was not as usual as she felt every year at the occasion of the fare well of the students. Al of the feelings of mine just were hidden inside. I was not capable to say that to anyone. I dont know, how i passed that moments when, i stared at her sight in the class.
