Taken Polices for Implementing Love

Day by day, i was turned to amad. And i was not in my perfect mental position; now i can realize that. To see her regularly, i took a step to recover me from the student house of public college. I make an argument to my parent for taking a room rent beside the public college. for this purpose, i took a room from one of my aunt. I saty at her house every day except the holiday. But at later, i was not regular at staying at that house. At the weekend, i returned to the home at thursday night. And I used to tried to see her. Some thimes, i used to make a ride by my cycle beside her house. Seldom, i was winner.

I took her all kinds of news and informations from my little informer. They all the times followed her and colleted various data about her. I came to know that some guys had started to disturb her. Hearing that, being Flourish i made an critical dicission to punish that guy. And i am happy that i was successfull at my performanace without any kind of problem. From that day, i took an another kind of technique, to proceed my love in a progressive way. I was just the output of my being adult.

At the rent room, i stayed alone. I spoke little with the outside people. And as a result, all the times i spoke myself. And once upon a time, I started to download my mind utterence to a notebook. The pages of the notebook was covering quickly. But my mental anxieties were increasing day by day with out her touch.

And at last, i decided to give the notebook to her. I handled the matter with my good hand. For that purpose, i used my squad. they were little but was very interactive at their duties. I commanded them once in a week. and all the days of the week they used to followed my commands and guides. After many tries, they handovered my covered diary to her. But at the diary, there was no name of mine. So, probably she didn,t make any spicification about me.

all the times, i was very much serious about the output for my final activities. Sometimes, i thought that she had selected me. But she failed. I sent many letters but there was no feed back of those. Those attitudes of her attracted me much. And my love was competting with her anger to the unkown person. At last, i sent a information to send back my diary throgh the selected bearer of mine. After some days she

When i am far from her

After taking admission in the college, I stayed at hostel. I don't know how it was possibe for me to stay away from her. But, now I think that was be possible just for my imagination power. She is more than the original to me at my virtual love zone. I can see her more than the clear as she is in original. But i fall in mental disorder when, i was not able to watch her by my intuitive power of immagination. Probably, this is the test to me from the god how i loved her. when my fried used to share their emotion among them, i just attend in their conversation. AT the first stage of their serial conversation, i could not tell anything about my love as i have no practical field experience. But, gradually, i came to understand that i feel my love more than they felt. I didn't know when i had started to join with them with my hidden love. But all the told stories by me were just the immaginary of my mind. And she turned to me a little bit more closer than that of privious. I turned to more intimate with my love.


At various vacation, i went ot my house. After going back to my house, my duty was just to see her atleast once in day. I used to wait beside the road from where she went to the school at school time. And at evening, i went to the Bridge just for taking a glance of her. There, she used to come with her father just for helping him by watering the plants. She was very unregular at her work. For my regularity, sometimes i came back tomy home with my broken herat. Oh dear, when you will understad all of my language!!

On the day of my returns to the hostel, i felt very mental sick after thinking the days of my hostel. From then, i planned to get me outside from the hostel. Then, I took a resident at a house beside my college. And after that i started to go back to my house at each weekend. But it didn,t give me any fruitfull reasult. As, she was not available, on those days at the outside of her house. But, it was a lottery to me. Sometimes for her, private tuitor, she went by the road. I followed her at verious techniques, some times i cross her on the smae road, sometimes form the windows of my house, some times simply standing beside the road. I realized that, day by day i wasbeing a shameless guy for watching her. I stared at her with out any hesitation; but i feel very abnormal when made an twinkle at me. What about that moment!! Those are unforgottable!! Indeed!!!!

I like that girl

For many days, i think that i will free from my mental bomb blast that has been following me for a long time. But i can not get the procedure to explain and share my love that is secrect to every one except I. It is really a matter of suspense that even my beloved does not know directly that i am the person who love her. I haven,t make any conversasion with her till now. But , probably i will meet with her very soon. I started to love her about 11 years ago when she was very little and i was also a boy of tender age. I have not understood that it would be great part of my life. But, gradually, i came to understand that, it will be take a serious part of my life. And now, i feel that. For this reason, i am starting to share my story to everyone as i think it will be documentary of a great love that truns over time.

She was then only,12 or 13 years then. I found a glitter in hers eyes that attracted me very much. Seldom, i saw her as she was the daughter of a restricted family. But at the time of the school tiffin period, we often cross each other on the way of out home. It should be noted that we are the inhabitant of the same village. I was then 15, so i feel the change of my mentality. All the scenes of her driven me to the forward upto the our next meeting. But i konw probably she used to take all the thing just an incident. I never thought to speak my feeling to her as i was a child of respected family. And for this reason, to save the respectability and to continue my ego, i afraid to tell her. And as at this age, everyone has the habbit to share everything with her parents. i thought she might say everything to her parents. That was not expected to me. As her father was the school teacher of mine and i respect her very much.

At the time of the school assembly, I shore the Prayer and I felt heroisim as i thought that she wass watching me in a different look. And for many other reasons, i felt very cool as I was the first boy of the school so everyone took a special look to me.

All things were going very nicely. But my mental explosion took place when, the class mates started to make various gossip about us. though i knew that every thing is false, but i felt happy as they told my dreams.

At the day, when i left the school forever, i along with every one went to every classes fro taking blessings from all the students. And i was also present at the Class of her. Unlike every classes, i could not make any speach to the students. I, dont know what about that. But , Now i feel that I was thinking that, i will not make the regular meet with her from now. I followed her eyes carefully, I dont know, what she felt then. But i think taht was not as usual as she felt every year at the occasion of the fare well of the students. Al of the feelings of mine just were hidden inside. I was not capable to say that to anyone. I dont know, how i passed that moments when, i stared at her sight in the class.